This presidential election year was brutal both inside and outside our home. My husband and I were united when it came to supporting Ben Carson but once Carson was off the ballot and the only two real ticket holders was Clinton and Trump, the battle was on.
My husband chose to side with the Don as suggested by Carson and I decided that I would stand with Hillary.
For most women like myself, this was a battle of man vs. woman. Both candidates were power hungry and in a power grab I wanted a woman to win.
I believe that a win for one woman is a win for all women.
My husband was not the least bit pleased with my choice considering all that she had supposedly done. I say "supposedly" because the evidence was not concrete enough for me and I wasn't about to dismiss her until the evidence was so concrete that I could stand on a solid NO in voting against the first possible woman president.
I have always been in favor of supporting women and their gain in powerful positions primarily held by men. This, however, does not include the church.
I don't believe that women should hold power in church settings nor grasp at the chance. Jesus made this clear when He said to "give Caesar what is Caesar's and give God what is God's."
So, for me and because it is written in the Bible, the church should always be led by men.
BUT the world, in the other hand, is up for grabs and women have just as much of a chance at the podium of power.
Standing with Hillary seemed right because she is a woman and I, as a woman, believed that it was time to put a woman in the White House.
I have come to believe that God uses these political seasons to TEST the faithfulness and obedience of those who claim to "love" and "follow" Him. To show His kids where their trust and focus lie. To show what is really in our hearts.
For me, the BIG question was -- am I surrendered to God's will or not?
After several weeks of debating with my very conservative spouse I came upon a scripture that really captured me.
"He guides the humble in what is right and teaches them His way." ~Psalm 25:9
Was I being humble enough to be taught by Him?
So, as David did in Psalm 139, I asked Him to...
Well, it didn't take long for God to show me the condition of my heart and where I was still being rebellious against Him."Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.Point out ANYTHING IN ME that offends You, and lead me along the path of everlasting life."
I'm gonna be vulnerable enough to admit the HUGE crack in my foundation of faith:
I am (to this very day and as I write this) BROKEN and warring against OBEDIENCE in the area of FEMALE IDOLATRY.
- I idolize my right as a woman MORE than being a follower of Jesus Christ.
- I love my womanhood MORE than I love Jesus.
- I have a stronger desire to protect my right as a woman MORE than I desire to please the God I say I serve.
God's will and truth was not my focus.
I was doing exactly what Romans 1:25 stated:
"They traded the truth about God for a lie. So they worshiped and served the things God created instead of the Creator himself, who is worthy of eternal praise!"
How did He use my strong desire to advocate for women and their rights??
How did He help me to put Him back at His rightful place in all my decisions???
He sent me something I did NOT want to see but could not ignore.
He knew what it would take to break my disobedience. He sent me a child.
A little redheaded girl. Her name is Kathy Shelton.
After reading Kathy's testimony and doing a lot of research to make sure that it was not a fake claim, I knew right then and there that no matter how badly I wanted to see a woman in the White House, Hillary was not getting my vote.
Like I stated in the beginning of my blog: a win for ONE woman is a win for ALL women.
For me, Hillary left a woman behind.
A little girl that did not deserve the brutality of rape and then to be victimized again by one of her own kind. Hillary betrayed her and when you, as a woman, betray your own kind then you are traitor more than a woman.
I never want to diminish the value of one woman especially when that woman is a child.
To be a woman is of GREAT value.
|My Facebook post on election night to explain why I didn't vote for Hillary.|
Hillary was not a good candidate to represent the beauty of women unity.
One day there will be such a woman and I will PROUDLY vote for her with a clean conscience and know that I didn't go against the God I love and serve.
So, with all that, I'll let Madeleine Albright close out my blog with her quote that she obviously did not remember to adhere to.
|Oh, the hypocrisy!|